I got away with stealing
a heart you held so near,
always somehow believing
that we had nothing to fear.
–
I got away with lying
beside you all these years,
never really trying
always hiding from the mirror.
–
I got away with murder
when I finally saw the tears,
stating as they stained your face
that I no longer live here.
I ask a question
and wait patiently to hear
my life alter course.
The flowers are all but dead
and yet a ghost of their beauty
still dances in my head.
–
I thought that water and sun
would be all that they need
to survive the ever burning heat
and not become weeds.
–
But now, the flowers are surely gone
and the grass that remains is burned
into some semblance of a lawn.
–
Like those flowers who didn’t make it,
my love for you needed more
since the burning heat of passion
burned your soul to the core.
I can certainly do it myself
and most times I do
because on one soul I can rely
and that surely isn’t you.
Who says that fur can’t tan?
I will prove them wrong,
even if it means sitting
in the sun all day long.
I tell myself that the secrets
and the sneaking around
are all necessary evils
so I don’t make a sound.
All the lies that are told
and the schemes that are made
are only for your benefit
and soon, they will all fade.
It seems like so much work
to trick and to deceive
but when we yell, “surprise,”
I hope that you don’t leave.
The little things in life
are thrown away so easily
since they can fit better
and don’t rip the trash bag.
What I remembered most
were the times we fought
and decided that hatred
was easier sought.
Now, I can recall clearly
that not all the times were bad
and my time was wasted
by ever feeling sad.
Letters making words;
fingers clicking to the beat
of my broken heart.
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