In Bed

It pains me to say,
you were right.
Do you remember
the way it felt
that night?
We both knew
what tomorrow
would bring
still it didn’t mean
a damn thing.
As you drifted
off to sleep,
three words
from your lips
did creep.
My heart froze,
my mind raced,
my breath caught,
and all those feeling
I bravely fought.
Morning came
and you awoke.
Your mouth
not moving
and still you spoke.
Those eyes,
blue and deep,
begged me to stay
and still
I walked away.
But somehow you knew
in the words you never said
and you were right
that I should have stayed
with you, in bed.

© Autumn Siders 2018

#tbt

Thump, thump, thump.
The monsters are coming.
You can run, you can hide,
you can scream
but not a thing
can wake you from
this dream.

Bang, bang, bang.
The shots are close.
You can zig, you can zag,
you can duck
but bullets
don’t care about
a thing called luck.

Thump, thump, thump.
Your heart still beats.
You can live, you can love,
you can be
but the stakes
are high
and never free.

© Autumn Siders 2016

Happy Birthday, Emilita!

Today, you are eight,

but my baby you’ll still be.

You are happiness.

© Autumn siders 2018

In case you didn’t guess it, today is Emilita’s birthday! If you feel the urge to honor her in any way, feel free to send a donation to her charities of choice.

The Lakes Region Humane Society

Villalobos Rescue Center

Narcolepsy

Sleep comes all to quickly these days
and lasts all through the morn.
If I could sleep any longer than that,
all day, my bed, I would adorn.
Never before in my life
have I felt so utterly drained
perhaps since until now
I’ve not been so completely strained.
I’d like to go back some day
to my old insomniac ways
but perhaps for now I’ll catch up
on all I lost and sleep for days.

© Autumn Siders 2018

What I’ve Got

Who would fall for me?
You’re only asking for
heartbreak.
A control freak
who needs
only to be free.

And still you say
you can change my way
but I’m set in stone
in my will to be alone.

Why do you fall for me?
So that I always have to say,
“it was fun,
but we’re done
this is not
who I want to be.”

And maybe someday
I will change my way
but probably not;
I’m happy with what I’ve got.

© Autumn Siders 2018

Happy Birthday, Evan!

One year down
with many more to go
and the sky’s the limit
on all the knowledge you’ll know.

Where will you go?
Who will you be?
Even time won’t tell
all the great things you’ll see.

There will be ups
and there will be downs
but you’re sure to succeed
with your family around.

You’re just starting out
and that can be grand
as long as you greet
the world with an open hand.

So keep that smile on
and don’t ever forget,
to be a good person
and keep your heart fit.

The world may be cruel
but you don’t need to be
since love is stronger
and will always be free.

© Autumn Siders 2018

Lamb

I don’t understand
why you won’t let me in.
There are battles to fight
and wars to win.
If I could only enter,
I would make you see
that nothing can stand
between that mouse and me.
You think you may know
about who I am
but really I’m not
some cute little lamb.
Ferocious and wild,
I’ll attack if I must
’cause I always get my mouse,
in that you can trust.

That Feeling

That feeling,
when you know you’ve forgotten something.
Did I leave the stove on?
Did I lock the door?
Did I put on deodorant this morning?
All these nagging dangers
that consume your every thought
and usually turn out to be nothing,
but hold the potential for
death,
destruction,
and personal ruin.
That is the feeling
that you elicit
in me.