I hate how I cannot
wipe the smile off my face
since the simple thought of you
makes my heart begin to race.
How much I must appear
to be a fool at your mercy
when I know deep down
we two, can never be.
I hate how I cannot
wipe the smile off my face
since the simple thought of you
makes my heart begin to race.
How much I must appear
to be a fool at your mercy
when I know deep down
we two, can never be.
Your perfume lingers
in the far reaches
of my adolescent mind
and ever so often
your memory is refreshed
by a sudden whiff
from a passerby
and in that instant
I am back at my desk
scribbling my tiny words
as I furiously translate
only to find out
that their love burned
just hot enough to destroy
as she fell upon
the very sword he gave
to her.
The list before me:
seek knowledge, love, and be loved.
The purpose of life.
I don’t some warm milk
nor can I count sheep
since I am peacefully under
in your arms where I sleep.
I try to keep an open mind
and then without a doubt,
a single person slams it closed
and kicks idealism out.
I really want to believe,
that good is all around
but the images I see now
are certainly hell bound.
I’ve often dreamed of escape
but I know that staying here
is a better choice for sure;
the treat in your hand makes it clear.
The anticipation of what
may be
leaves me missing what
has been
which makes me question what
will be
since maybe it’s not what
I want.
The day begins anew
or is it the day before
they all run together;
I’ve stopped keeping score.
–
Is this what it’s all about
repeating history over again
or is there some deeper worth
than atoning for our daily sin?
I got away with stealing
a heart you held so near,
always somehow believing
that we had nothing to fear.
–
I got away with lying
beside you all these years,
never really trying
always hiding from the mirror.
–
I got away with murder
when I finally saw the tears,
stating as they stained your face
that I no longer live here.
I ask a question
and wait patiently to hear
my life alter course.