#tbt

My physical scars
have only me to blame:

The divot above my eye
from scratching chicken pox,
the bump upon my head
caused by a nail,
the scratch down my cheek
from a cat less-than-impressed,
the discoloration on my knees
from racing trash cans down a hill.

My emotional scars
have only you to blame:

My inability to trust
which you, I obviously could not,
my lack of interest in love
which I thought was real with you,
my error in stringing others along,
which I learned from the best,
the wall around my heart
that I raced to build as you walked away.

© Autumn Siders 2017

Well Wishes

This is the first year
I did not wish you well
and it doesn’t bother me
like I thought it would.
Who are you
and who am I?
We’ve grown apart
and sailed away,
drifted alone
our separate ways.

What more do we say
when all has been said?

It’s been many years
since you have wished me well
and it doesn’t bother me
but this you know.
I may not have said it,
but I thought of you still
so maybe my well wishes
will find you anyway.

© Autumn Siders 2018

Forced to Act

What’s with all this noise,
can’t you see I’m trying to sleep?
You say it’s all for me
but I find that hard to believe.

I never asked for that shelf
or for you to take that one away.
Why can’t you leave things as they are
for just one day?

Cats, we do not like change
so just respect this fact
and stop all this noise
before you force me to act.

© Autumn and Emilita Siders 2018

Toby

Abandoned, betrayed, bewildered
yet loyal, determined, he persevered.
Twelve miles, a merciless trek
only to be sent to his death.
Compassion laid in wait
and another day would dawn
for this noble soul
who never knew
anything was wrong.

© Autumn Siders 2018

In Remembrance

I spent the whole day remembering
so many little things I forgot
and then I spent the night wondering
where my life went off track.

Was it when I turned my back
on what I’d always known
or when I fell right into
your smile, your laugh, your lies?

I think back to a simpler time
and I know things weren’t so simple
and I think back to life divine
and know it was all in my head.

When did I forget
exactly who I am
and when will I remember
how to be her again?

© Autumn Siders 2018