Murk

What genre do I live
tragedy or comedy?
So hard to find
meaning in the pain.
What path do I walk?
An honest anomaly
in a hopeless hell
with a smile that I feign.

Oceans and seas
turbulent than most
and calm waters
deeper than the core
surround my thoughts
with a haunting ghost
and cut so deeply
waiting for more.

Grant me freedom
from stone-cold thoughts
where demons hide
and devils lurk.
And help untie
these ragged knots
which dwell inside
deep in murk.

Plant a seed
and watch it grow
black vines take over
and eat me whole.
Reap not only
what I sow
but rip the light
right out my soul.

© Autumn Siders 2018

Screams

this screaming has got to stop

can anyone silence that voice

it rings in my ears

and rattles my brain

the agony quite clear

the urgency so palpable

all other noise fades until

only I am left

this screaming has got to stop

© Autumn Siders 2017