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Stepping out into the sun,

I shield my eyes from light

after living so long in the dark

even a candle would be bright.

I have morphed into a creature

unlike what anyone has seen

but I am happier this way

at least my soul is clean.

© Autumn Siders 2006

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There is a winter scene

painted on canvas before me.

A single light illuminates

a snow covered tree.

There is a winter scene

full of life out the window.

The cars bustle and the people

bundle as the snow piles grow.

There is a winter scene

deep within my soul.

The longer I go without you

the more my heart is not whole.

© Autumn Siders 2016

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The café is empty

and my cup about the same.

I fill the page to make up

for the emptiness for which I’m to blame.

No matter what I write,

the page still seems blank

and the words mean nothing

since when you left, my heart sank.

The words that I choose

may hold no meaning for me

but those who read them

give meaning I cannot see.

© Autumn Siders 2015

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They can only hold for so long

as the pressure mounts its war

and each and every time it seems

I am on the other side of the door.

The water trickles through

slowly at first; it is the calm before

whatever breaks through these gates

as only nature knows what’s in store.

The question then is quite simple,

do I run or do I stay and let

the water crash down and bury me?

But the answer is never that simple

and if I run I won’t drown yet,

but the inevitable can only be delayed.

© Autumn Siders 2015

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I stumbled across my old iPod from college just the other day. I happened to click on to the Top 25 Most Played list and was instantly transported back six years. Some of those 25 are probably still on my most played list, but it is amazing how a simple song can bring you right back to a time, a place, or a person.

As I listened to When You Were Young by The Killers, I felt as if I could still play the whole song on guitar hero by heart. Just hearing the first few piano chords of Take Me or Leave Me from RENT helps sum up the whole four years I spent doing just that with the only person I have ever truly loved. Something always does bring me back to crazy car rides with that one person who I couldn’t stay in another moment of her gravity. We had two headlights, but with every listen of One Headlight by The Wallflowers, I remember driving somewhere, anywhere, nowhere, with two of my best friends. The southern twang of Jennifer Nettles singing Want To reminds me of that crazy dream I had to sing…still haven’t figured out how to do that in tune. I remember being a stupid freshman who scheduled a class at 8am but was okay with Puedes contar conmigo by La oreja de Van Gogh playing in my ears as I enjoyed a very empty campus on my cold walk to class.

Music has always been an important part of my life. Would I have any of these memories if music weren’t associated with them? I don’t know. I would like to think that I would, but they just wouldn’t be as vivid in my mind’s eye. Either way, I am grateful for music for preserving so many important memories in my brain and I look forward to looking back on my current playlist in the future.